Hi all! I’m still on holiday, the weather is beautiful and it is so peaceful. I’ve mainly been eating, having a swim in the pool and lounging around. I have booked 2 day trips, one of them is to visit a volcano crater.
I have come to realise a few things, one that I am addicted to my phone and in turn I never really switch off and two a holiday is not a cure for my anxiety. The idea that a break would be a chance to switch off from everything including my daily struggles with anxiety is not really the case.
Instead I have come to realise how much my anxiety has a hold of me. I am contestantly thinking other people our judging me and just how awkward I can be interacting with strangers. I have a lot of time to think, which is both a good and a bad thing. A good thing as it gives me time to really analyse my next steps in life/job but also time to wonder if that couple over there are staring at me and what is it that they are thinking.
It is a constant battle and can be very draining.
But it has helped getting out my usual surroundings and I definitely recommend it. I have read though a few books while I have been to Greece, one of the few times my thoughts and attention has been on one thing at a time. So a impossibility that I need to read more, along the fact I need to separate myself from my phone more.